Day 10 + 3 - My Husband Doesn't Know

Today was a beautiful day in Portland. Crisp winter sky with a full bright and round sun. The wind was super cold. I might guess 35-40 degrees.

My husband and I went on a bike ride around our extended neighborhood first to visit a friend and secondly to find a place that served soup for me. We ended up settling at a warm diner called Old Wives Tales. I order a broth based chicken soup with fresh spinach.

The chicken is still too much to eat but I ate the broth and spinach happily. Not much for a meal in the grand scheme of things but satisfying for me.

I am currently in the process of preparing a great big pot of Harvest Vegetable Moon Soup, filled with rice, pasta, peas, carrots, onions, and chicken. I also am broiling Chinese broccoli, yellow peppers and portabello mushrooms in the oven. You might laugh if you know me - for writing all that. I hate to cook. I mean I really hate it. It makes me super stressed and I find the whole process pointless when you can go down the street and buy a much tastier already prepared meal.

I am trying to be better, get better, be calmer. And today wasn't so bad. I was so excited about all the fresh vegetables and my creations that I had little time to get stressed. Going to eat (probably a tiny bowl) of soup in a few. Can't wait.

Frankly its a little hard to watch what my husband eats now that he is back. Normal, healthy things - but in a typical day both him and I could have eaten a couple of deserts. I am not tempted by what he eats, more like disappointed. He eat a lemon square from New Season's Market and then when we got home right after he said "I'm so hungry" and went to the freezer to eat some ice cream. I said "You aren't hungry and if you are eat an apple". We laughed and he said "Is that how it's going to be from now on". I told him, "Now I know the difference between hungry and cravings".

So what doesn't my husband know? I plan to do the master cleanse again next year - this time roping him into it. Ha Ha.