Spiritual
Today was a nice day. I woke up at 5am for no reason, slept till 6am and woke up specifically to drink my salt water flush. I had read warnings about this process but didn't think it would be that hard. I grew up in Florida and went to the ocean everyday during the summer. I must have swallowed gallons of salt water. How hard could it be? Two cups into the flush I realized that I didn't like this much. Five minutes later as the water went coursing through my stomach, large and small intestines I realized what the word "flush" meant. Fifteen minutes later I felt just fine and ready to start my day.
What waking up at 6am allowed me to have is 1 hour of time for reading my bible. This time flew quickly as I got consumed by the passage. This morning one of the items I covered was Matthew 4: 1-11, which dealt with the tempting of Jesus in the dessert. Great passage, especially considering they talked about it two Sundays ago at church.
The context of that talk was about how we should worship God and not idols. Casting Down Idols such as the idols of Comfort, Power, Control, and Approval. Jesus was tempted by all of these idols as he suffered in the desert. His most powerful words, "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God". Words to think about and motivation for the days to come.
Mental
This was a very strange day for me. I used the word feeling deprived not in the literal sense of feeling deprived from food but rather feeling deprived - as if someone was taking something away from me that belonged to me. It is strange that we see food this way. As people in my office were happily munching on their lunch I felt as if they were loarding it over me. As if they knew (which they don't) that I couldn't eat and so they were using their happy faces to deprive me of my joy.
This is the most ridiculous concept ever but this is how I felt. It remind me of when we were kids my mom would buy a box of Popsicles and as soon as they hit the freezer we would grap for the first one and try to eat as many as we could. We did this so that they other siblings wouldn't get anymore - because if they did we would feel as if we were being deprived. It was really just greed and competition. Manly greed. Oh! I have a better word covetness. Why do I covet my brother's food?
As a result of this and other events I decided to start this blog to share my feelings. There is actually a lot of extra time randomly, especially with no TV, so I have set in mind to write a little each day and share with whoever might be reading.
Today was a nice day. I woke up at 5am for no reason, slept till 6am and woke up specifically to drink my salt water flush. I had read warnings about this process but didn't think it would be that hard. I grew up in Florida and went to the ocean everyday during the summer. I must have swallowed gallons of salt water. How hard could it be? Two cups into the flush I realized that I didn't like this much. Five minutes later as the water went coursing through my stomach, large and small intestines I realized what the word "flush" meant. Fifteen minutes later I felt just fine and ready to start my day.
What waking up at 6am allowed me to have is 1 hour of time for reading my bible. This time flew quickly as I got consumed by the passage. This morning one of the items I covered was Matthew 4: 1-11, which dealt with the tempting of Jesus in the dessert. Great passage, especially considering they talked about it two Sundays ago at church.
The context of that talk was about how we should worship God and not idols. Casting Down Idols such as the idols of Comfort, Power, Control, and Approval. Jesus was tempted by all of these idols as he suffered in the desert. His most powerful words, "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God". Words to think about and motivation for the days to come.
Mental
This was a very strange day for me. I used the word feeling deprived not in the literal sense of feeling deprived from food but rather feeling deprived - as if someone was taking something away from me that belonged to me. It is strange that we see food this way. As people in my office were happily munching on their lunch I felt as if they were loarding it over me. As if they knew (which they don't) that I couldn't eat and so they were using their happy faces to deprive me of my joy.
This is the most ridiculous concept ever but this is how I felt. It remind me of when we were kids my mom would buy a box of Popsicles and as soon as they hit the freezer we would grap for the first one and try to eat as many as we could. We did this so that they other siblings wouldn't get anymore - because if they did we would feel as if we were being deprived. It was really just greed and competition. Manly greed. Oh! I have a better word covetness. Why do I covet my brother's food?
As a result of this and other events I decided to start this blog to share my feelings. There is actually a lot of extra time randomly, especially with no TV, so I have set in mind to write a little each day and share with whoever might be reading.
Physical
I am not actually "hungry" in the proper sense of the word. Anytime I have had a little stomach rumble I take a quick sip of lemonade drink and my hunger goes away immediately. This is actually amazing and quite accurate compared to what people have been saying on blogs and websites. Today is Day 2 which is supposed to be on the hardest days (Day 2, 3 & 7). So far not too bad. My main complaints are feelings of social isolation which I address in the Mental section as feeling deprived. Physical there isn't much wanting. I do feel a bit "empty" inside - in the literal sense of having nothing in my stomach. Energy is fine although I did have a half an hour around 3pm in which I felt really foggy - as if the mist was rolling in. This passed and didn't come back.
Thigh R - 24
Thigh L - 23.5
Hips - 38
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