Spiritual
I learned the most interesting thing today in my morning reading. I have read this story over and over again in Mark 1. The story about Jesus being baptized and the Holy Spirit descending on him like a dove. What I realized suddenly was that this was Jesus's conversion experience. Well not that he needed to get converted to himself but this was the time the Holy Spirit came into his life to be his helper.
This is very similar to when we become Christians, or Christ follower or believers, whatever term floats your boat. In essence Jesus has gone through what we have. Not only has he been tempted, but he also has the Holy Spirit to help him through these temptations. Who knew? He can really empathize. Talking about empathizing. I remember praying last night that God would make this day easy for me and voila! He did. Ask and you shall receive. Note to self.
Mental
I find it strange that Day 3 is supposed to be one of the hardest. Today wasn't hard at all. I had the same feel of being deprived but less so. If I had to categorize the feeling it would be more of a bored and a little foggy around 3pm.
I made sure not to steal glances at the fruit on the lunch room table or read the three emails that were sent at work about the free food in the break room. I felt that they were doing it to tease me, but in fact no one - I take that back - my boss actually offered me some peanut brittle. But besides that no one has offered me food or even noticed that I haven't eaten. I guess that is how some people slip into anorexia - no one really pays attention to these things. They just go on happily eating themselves.
Somehow we become very unaware of our surroundings while eating. I think that is the phenomena of people gathering around the table of food at a party just so they don't have to really interact with the people. When you are around food it is comfortable and safe. You can talk about the food, commenting how great it is or talk about how you can make it at home. All of this - instead of dealing with the hard questions like "Who is this I am talking to?" and "Now I have to think of something clever to say" or "How do I get out of this conversation". At the end of it all you can say is, "It was nice talking to you, I'm going to go over and get a drink". But what if you don't eat and drink. Then What.?
Physical
I realized today that I had forgotten one of the most important goals I had when going on this fast. That was to rid my face and body of allergies and acne. I had heard from web sources that this could be an effective way of purging the body of allergies - which are thought to be sensitive to toxins. This would make sense in my case since I am allergic to household products such as bleach, window sprays etc. I have actually changed to all natural cleaning products for the past 3 years or so and cleaning has become an aromatherapy experience - almost like a day at a the spa. Ok, not quite so but you get the point. So today I looked at my face and notice that it was much brighter and cleaner. Maybe its my imagination or maybe the lack of food. Maybe its really your perception changes and not your skin. That would be funny. I mean no it won't.
So my sister read the blog yesterday and said I was, what is the word, a weirdo, for writing my thigh measurements. I never thought of it that way. I just wanted some type of physical measurement besides weight. After all, weight is just a number! Ah but I guess thigh measurements are too. My excuse -it has been at least a year since I have been able to fit into half of pants which makes both dressing and shopping not very pleasant experiences. Come to think of it - not that they were pleasant before. Well I hope someone enjoys my measurements. Any statistics nerds?
Thigh R - 24
Thigh L - 23.5
Hip - 38
I learned the most interesting thing today in my morning reading. I have read this story over and over again in Mark 1. The story about Jesus being baptized and the Holy Spirit descending on him like a dove. What I realized suddenly was that this was Jesus's conversion experience. Well not that he needed to get converted to himself but this was the time the Holy Spirit came into his life to be his helper.
This is very similar to when we become Christians, or Christ follower or believers, whatever term floats your boat. In essence Jesus has gone through what we have. Not only has he been tempted, but he also has the Holy Spirit to help him through these temptations. Who knew? He can really empathize. Talking about empathizing. I remember praying last night that God would make this day easy for me and voila! He did. Ask and you shall receive. Note to self.
Mental
I find it strange that Day 3 is supposed to be one of the hardest. Today wasn't hard at all. I had the same feel of being deprived but less so. If I had to categorize the feeling it would be more of a bored and a little foggy around 3pm.
I made sure not to steal glances at the fruit on the lunch room table or read the three emails that were sent at work about the free food in the break room. I felt that they were doing it to tease me, but in fact no one - I take that back - my boss actually offered me some peanut brittle. But besides that no one has offered me food or even noticed that I haven't eaten. I guess that is how some people slip into anorexia - no one really pays attention to these things. They just go on happily eating themselves.
Somehow we become very unaware of our surroundings while eating. I think that is the phenomena of people gathering around the table of food at a party just so they don't have to really interact with the people. When you are around food it is comfortable and safe. You can talk about the food, commenting how great it is or talk about how you can make it at home. All of this - instead of dealing with the hard questions like "Who is this I am talking to?" and "Now I have to think of something clever to say" or "How do I get out of this conversation". At the end of it all you can say is, "It was nice talking to you, I'm going to go over and get a drink". But what if you don't eat and drink. Then What.?
Physical
I realized today that I had forgotten one of the most important goals I had when going on this fast. That was to rid my face and body of allergies and acne. I had heard from web sources that this could be an effective way of purging the body of allergies - which are thought to be sensitive to toxins. This would make sense in my case since I am allergic to household products such as bleach, window sprays etc. I have actually changed to all natural cleaning products for the past 3 years or so and cleaning has become an aromatherapy experience - almost like a day at a the spa. Ok, not quite so but you get the point. So today I looked at my face and notice that it was much brighter and cleaner. Maybe its my imagination or maybe the lack of food. Maybe its really your perception changes and not your skin. That would be funny. I mean no it won't.
So my sister read the blog yesterday and said I was, what is the word, a weirdo, for writing my thigh measurements. I never thought of it that way. I just wanted some type of physical measurement besides weight. After all, weight is just a number! Ah but I guess thigh measurements are too. My excuse -it has been at least a year since I have been able to fit into half of pants which makes both dressing and shopping not very pleasant experiences. Come to think of it - not that they were pleasant before. Well I hope someone enjoys my measurements. Any statistics nerds?
Thigh R - 24
Thigh L - 23.5
Hip - 38
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